dreams

Dreaming of a Life Where My Husband Doesn’t Have ALS

I sometimes dream my husband, Todd, is calling for me at night. I wake and check the time. If it’s after 5 a.m., I know his nighttime caregiver has left, so I check on him to see if he needs to be turned, have a limb adjusted, or an itch…

Is It Too Much to Wish for Marital Bliss?

I felt twinges of grief as I shopped for a card for a young couple’s wedding. First card: “Wishes on this special day for happiness, joy, and love, along with a future that will bring everything you are dreaming of.” Sigh. I wish my husband and I had a future.

The Glorious Domino Effect From a Toppled Landmark

“And I hope when I get old I don’t sit around thinking about it But I probably will Yeah, just sitting back trying to recapture A little of the glory Well time slips away and leaves you with nothing, mister, but Boring stories of Glory days …” Bruce Springsteen’s…

Learning to Overcome My Biggest Fears

Living in the present has always been hard for me. I had such grand dreams for my future. It is hard to come to terms with the fact that I won’t go on a camel trek in the Sahara and spend the night under the most beautiful…